and not in the 'i've lost half my body weight' type way. 

you know, I don't think watching the biggest loser is motivating AT ALL. It just makes me feel bad and think 'oh, great. I'm gunna end up getting fat and being on the show one day'. IT'S NOT COOL! And when you see people dropping off weight like nuts in real life it's even more depressing. It's good for them. but when people who are like, size 10 are going to the gym and trying to lose weight, it's pretty damn retarded. 

But anyway, it's not like it's their fault. -_- I am how I am because of what I choose to do (or not do), and what i stick in my mouth. That's what's really sad. You know what's even worse? When you wish you were seriously sick for just a little while so you couldn't eat, or considering getting an eating disorder just 'cause that shit actually works! Now that is effing messed up. 

Don't worry. As if I'd actually do that anyway. If I can't motivate myself to stick to an exercise regime, what could possibly make me stick to a barfing routine? *eyeroll* 

I am a sad, sad person. 

But, I'm working on it. 

In the mean time, Mr. scales, let's be friends. 

xx