So I was walking home from panania, and outside the boys school I saw Steven and Willy. I said hi and hugged them or whatever and then Steven tagged along while I walked the rest of the way home. We were just talking and standing outside my front gate, and since it was kinda weird just standing there we went to the park across the road and were playing on the equipment or whatevs. There were these other two people there that lived down the road from me and yeah, we were talking to them and stuff too.
Anyway, we had to go back to my house because there was a get together thing going on, so Steven came along to that too. We were just hanging out in the backyard and talking some more. When he had to leave he kissed me on the cheek and gave me a hug. and then he kissed my forehead. and then he actually kissed me. Inside my head I was kind of hoping he would too. And so I reciprocated. for a bit. then I was like, holy sheet, I have a bf, and tried to push him away. He was like 'fine, I'll stop' and went home, and then yeah, I decided I was gunna have to tell Roger.
Then when I went back into my house I had to clean up all the party stuff and for some reason when I went into my room I was freaking out about ghosts and thinking about all these strange ghost banishing techniques and there was some weirdo holographic picture on my wall of chinese movie characters..
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um, yeah, so like, my dreams are messed up. =]
I looked up the whole dream meaning thing of cheating on your bf/gf though. lol. When I woke up I was like...'dude. what the hell is wrong with me'. and it turns out...if you dream about cheating on someone it's because you feel guilt in other areas of your life that may not have anything to do with your relationship at all. THANK GOD! I was like 'er....do I subconsciously like steven or something?!', but no, it makes sense. I'm really stressing out about this group presentation thing I have to do and I don't think I'm gunna do well and end up dragging everyone else's mark down and I feel bad for not starting it earlier.
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I just needed to post this because I was freaking out hard. =D
Time to hop back to my presentation. I need to send the guy my powerpoint slides by 6. ARGHH.
Later homies.
xx
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