I'm done with exams, so now I'm on holidays. Yay.

I have lots of things I want to do actually. But they're more personal projects rather than actually catching up with people type things. lol..

I've been thinking about people, and self-help personal development seminar things. Yeah, I know, it probably seems like a strange thing to think about, but I have my reasons! lol. I think as much as people can be inspired by those seminars or forums or whatever, I think ultimately, if you want to change the person you are, it's up to you to do it. If you're not achieving things you want to achieve, then it's up to you to change it. I think people subconsciously do know what needs to be done in order to get where they want to be, or be happy. Or even with doubts they may have with things. I think inside your mind you already know it. Maybe having someone tell you can be helpful in acknowledging the things you don't want to admit yourself. But the biggest problem I have with these things is that they charge you money to 'help' you. At RIDICULOUS costs mind you. I know psychologists and stuff do as well, but they also provide services for free at university for example.

I'm sure there are people that benefit from these seminars. I just don't get it. And maybe I shouldn't judge because I've never been to one and never intend to, but reading up on those places makes me realise how sane I am, and how happy I am to be myself. I have goals and aspirations, but I believe that I can achieve these on my own, in my own time, without spending money for people to tell me that I can do it, or even tell me how to do it. I want to be happy and successful on my own terms. I don't want people to check up on me, or to even give me advice. I rant, but sometimes life is hard, and sometimes I'm not happy, and I don't want to have to talk to people, but that's just how I am, and I accept that. Life isn't always sunshine and rainbows, and that's just how I deal with it. But, when it comes down to it, I am happy with who I am, where I am in life, and where I want to go. Even if things don't work out how I intend.

Even though I can be unhappy, I think essentially, I am a strong person. I like making my own life decisions, even if I don't like making little trivial ones. I can be indecisive, but ultimately, I'm in control of my life, and if I can't be effed to do something, no self-help seminar will ever be able to get me to do it.

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