I went in for a group job interview today. It was just on monday that I was telling Roger I wasn't going to get a call back. Then on Tuesday, I get the call, and I almost nearly crap myself from shock. So anyway, I go in today, and I was unsuccessful. lol. Honestly, I didn't think I would get the job anyway, so I'm not really disappointed about not getting the job. I am however, quite disappointed at myself for having such a massive brain fart. lol. We had to do this mock role play thing where we call up an existing supporter for a charity and ask them to increase their current donation. We even get given the script to read off. lol. So I go in there and my brain had a massive meltdown, and I DIDN'T READ THE SCRIPT! So, you know, epic fail there. lmao.
But yeah, realisticly, maybe it was the best way to get rejected from the job. Because in my head, I truly believe I could've done better. But in another sense, I just can't believe that in all the times I decide not to read off a sheet of paper with all the info right there for me, it was when it counted. LOL. I think that eats at me a little bit. It's so sad as well, because I think I would truly be unhappy if I DID get the job. =/ But I just can't believe how whacked out my brain went. All I can say though, is that this is a good learning experience. Although, it does make me worry about becoming a teacher. Once again. But don't worry, I'm just transferring my doubt into another area which I'm unsure about, which I do a lot when I feel like I let myself down.
But you know what. This was the best case scenario. I still have my freedom, and I don't have to stress out every time I reach for the phone to call someone. =P Next time, I think I'll go for something I actually enjoy. I think that'd inspire me to do better. =]
Sigh, I'm glad I got that off my chest.
Anyway, I have to make money some way, so FINALLY, I am vowing to myself that by friday night, I will have cleaned out my closet and listed all the decent items on eBay, and the items that I no longer wear that I don't think will sell, will go to charity. If you guys want something from the 'I don't think I'll sell it on eBay pile', I'll give it to you for free. Okalies?
Done!
xx
Labels: eBay, life, thoughts, update
