Where did this break go? =[

Procrastination really does not pay.

(And neither does eBay.)
xx

Also decided that I'm leaving uni after next year instead of after fifth year. This just means I only get a degree for education and not education and arts. But really, I don't care, and I'd rather spend that year earning money rather than racking up more debt.

I feel like I'm totally half assing this because my essay that I wrote for this unit actually corresponds so the two questions I'm preparing for..so I just split my essay and copied and pasted relevant bits under the different headings. -_- Don't worry, I'll refine it soon. I've written down the things I need to add/edit from it, so it should be good.

I think I'm going to try and focus on not freaking out. I'm pretty stressed at the moment actually. I don't feel like I'm doing enough study, and this is political economy which makes it worse, and I'm stressing about a whole bunch of other stupid things too. Urgh.

Breathe in, breathe out.

Hope all your exam prep/assessments are going well.

xx

Well no. I pulled my lectures off e-learning and like...mentally planned how i was going to attack this. But in practical terms, that = nothing.

I need to up my self discipline. Seriously.

Let's hope tomorrow is better, because if I don't start tomorrow, then it's going to be super panic time. Wish me luck guys. Garh.

2 weeks until I'm done!

xx

And I don't.

I can tell already I'm going to regret this. I was gunna stay up til 2am and get started. But since it's almost 1am, no point now!

So I'm going to sleep. Once Friday is here, I'll let you know how much I regretted wasting the day. =P

Nighty night.

xx

To add to my throat pains, I now have a blocked nose and headache. weeeee.

I just feel so tired. Honestly, all I want to do right now is lie in bed and sleep. You know what's stupid though, it's so effing hard to sleep when you're sick! What with the blocked noses and feeling like you're going to vomit in bed. yeah. sexy.

Grrrr.

I wish writing up an assessment was as easy as blogging. I'd be set by now (Duong, 2009, p.1). Ha. I just thought I'd reference myself to get in the assessmenting mood.

Oh, and I'm going to try and get an extension for my Friday assessments...I'm heading to the doctor tomorrow to get me a certificate. Sigh..I've never applied for an extension before, I feel really bad about doing it too, I guess you can't help it if you're sick though, right? =[ But I'm gunna try to finish my assessment by the due date still. I wouldn't wanna extend my misery, and it'll lesson my guilt too.

Okay, that's it. This blog is really turning into an 'update on duong's medical condition' blog. -_- as well as rant central for my assessments. I'm such a pain in the ass. lol

xx

P.S. I know you're going to read this Roger. DON'T WORRY! I'm doing everything I can to reduce the sickness. =] Including toweling my head. lols

This research project thing is getting ridiculous. Particularly because it's a partner thing, and there's so many different parts to it that the only real content we're writing is only going to be about 1250 words each. the lit review we have to include is 1500 words, but we've both done a lit review since it was an assessment earlier in the semester, so its just a matter of combining. then we need to write a bit on our research methods which takes up even more of our content space. It's ridiculous. Seriously. I'm trying to write up my part right now and I've only gotten 200 words. It's not difficult, I'm just lazy.

Just wait 'til Monday. That's when the panic will set in. It's when I have to call my high school, and also the day before handing in the project, and doing the presentation for it (which we're yet to figure out...). So yes. ARGH.

This morning from 8-ish to 1pm I was with my bro at the hospital. Don't worry, he's fine. It was kind of scary though, and...very anti-climatic. Which is probably a good thing actually since it turned out to be nothing major. Although, I think I have whatever it is that he has, so that totally sucks.

I was like, heating up at the hospital. Internally. And my throat was still hurting. So when I got home I just vegged out in my bed. and pretty much slept the whole day. Um. Not so good for my assessmenting, which is why I'm here now..and..procrastinating. Fork.

But never fear, sleep deprivation is here!

Staying up late to finish up tonight. I doubt I'll need the sleep anyway considering I slept during the day. [Doctors would probably say otherwise though.] Hopefully I'll feel better when morning comes, I want to head to Portia's housewarming and infect everyone.

I always thought my personality was infectious. HA!

Okay, enough lameness.

xx

AND IT'S SO EFFING DIFFICULT! ARGH!

I haven't written my conclusion yet though, but still. I don't tend to write conclusions that are 115 words. and I tend to cut down when I edit my essays, so like...I wanna write a bit more. It's so difficult. =[

But after this, I'll only have education assessments left. (although, they are huge.) But every completed assessment is an achievement.

So yay.

I'm starting to get sleepy. -_-

xx

Edit: it's 5:38 and I'm done. Well, I'm writing out my reference list at the moment. lol, but yaaaay. After this I'm going to take a little break then start on my education research assignment. Weeeeee.

This week I have this essay due, I'm busy and won't really be home much on Thursday, Friday and Sunday, and next week I have a research project due on Tuesday, along with the presentation for it, and on Friday I have my portfolio and case study due which is worth 60% of that unit of study. Oh. And I also have to call up my high school and hope to GOD that they let me do observations that week. YOU BETTER NOT SCREW ME OVER MR. KHOURY!!!! T_T

I just wanted to let you know what was going on because I've been missing for two days. Which would've been weird considering I was blogging everyday. lol.

Anywho, essay time. Once I'm ready to procrastinate again I'll show you a picture of the hat I bought on eBay. Fun times. =D

xx

I'm blogging purely because I'm procrastinating. So, at the moment, I don't really know what I'm going to talk to you about. =D

Hm...this past week of holidays has gone by so quickly. I feel like I haven't done anything. But it's been nice. Now I'm really looking forward to the summer holidays. I'm just hoping the next 4 weeks zooms by. Well...the next three in particular. In the last week I don't have any assessments due and it's normally revision in the lectures, so that's fine. And I'm looking forward to the exams actually. That sounds messed up, but I think they're my favourite kind of assessment. You already have all the stuff you need to know so you don't need to research, and you just have to waste 2 hours of your life answering questions about it. I would take exams over essays and presentations any day.

Okay. Enough rambling.

I'm going to TRY and get something down.

hm...let's aim for at least 1000 words tonight, okay?

xx

Hopefully things go well with this mini-lesson assessment thing on Monday. Why are education presentations so stressful?! WHYYYYYY?!

Sigh. Gotta do it regardless.

I'm a bit more concerned about this tutoring thing though...I went over to Liz's and just spent hours trying to help one of her little sisters get down the basics of what should go into her assessment. I don't think that counts as tutoring. lol. I think I'm screwed. I have an internal monologue of swear words going through my head. =D Maybe I should find other people to tutor...arghhhhhhhhh.

The Notebook is distracting me from writing out my lesson plan for Monday. How the hell do you even write a proper lesson plan?!

But, even though uni sucks a whole lot, I'm going to get through this. And I am going to do it well.

That's that.

xx

I've been tremendously busy with uni though. As of the end of week 3, I am amazingly still keeping up with the work. chyeah!

As part of my uni course I was placed at maquarie fields hs to do an observation day last thursday. It was pretty effing good. I think I'm quite fond of that school now. lol. I wouldn't mind going back there one day. We got to sit in on three lessons. None of the ones I got were completely selective classes. But, I got 1 year 11 class [which was AMAZING, the teacher is awesome, and is really passionate about the whole teaching thing, it was really nice to experience], the 'dumb' year 9 english class [which was pretty interesting too, apparently they were more misbehaved than usual because we were there, lmao], and a combined year 12 class that was doing revision for the trials. When we weren't observing we were pretty much just chatting to the teachers there, being shown around and getting to know how things work and how things are gunna be when we become teachers. I dunno. It kind of made me want to be a teacher. =]

On a different note, one of the things I've been attracted to lately: Wheels and Dollbaby. Their clothes are very...pin up girl. But there are a few pieces of theirs that I absolutely adore. They're a Sydney based company too, and unfortunately, very expensive. However, that's the beauty of eBay, right? I'll compile a lovely collage of some of their items that I love at the moment.


One of the W&D items I'm watching on eBay atm ends in..10 minutes. So I'll let you know how that goes at the end of my post. hahah. This is what it looks like:

The white bit actually looks a bit more creamy in the dress being sold though. But yeah, I really like it. =]

Also, I quite like bustiers at the moment too. Um..the ones that look like clothes though. not actual lingerie. I'll show you a few examples if I come across some that I like. The ones on eBay atm aren't too flash. Sportsgirl had a realllyyyy nice one a month or so back, but it was around 90 bucks...so no. lol. I've also come to finally understand the leotard thing. They're good layering pieces! And you don't have to worry about pulling down your top or whatever. But...they still don't float my boat, and the impracticalities still irk me. [seriously, bathroom anyone?!]

and omg. I lost the dress. Ah...what can you do eh? It ended up going for 150 buckeroonies though. I guess some people just wanted it more. =P

Anywho, enough for now. I'll try to get back into the swing of things. =]

xx

I am currently in love with strapless dresses, as you may have noticed. I've been wanting studded heels for a LONG time now, and I think my addiction with shoes is more about owning them than wearing them. Kind of like collectables in a sense. As strange as that sounds. loll. I also don't have a single pair of chucks, and since these were lovely, I figured why not. I ended up getting it for $22.50 including postage. WIN! Lucky too...I was talking to Roger on msn and forgot that I had to bid on the shoes. When I finally checked back there was only 15 seconds left, so I quickly bid and got in with one second left to go!!!!! It was nuts.

Normally I'd be really.....against wearing lace leggings, because they look so bad on lots of people. I'm sure I'll be included in that. lmao. But the pattern on these is so different. I just couldn't pass them up. Er....don't ask about the black dress. I can sense it's going to be a disaster, lmao, but I dunno, there's a strange sexyness about it. For some reason it reminds me of dominatrixes and such, but...well...let's not go there.

I think that's all I'm going to buying for awhile. I'll probably focus on selling. I'm only putting new stuff up once all the previous items sell. I think it's for organisational purposes more than anything else. I'm just too much of a noob to handle mass amounts of postage details..

On a different note, it's the last week of holidays. =[ If you think about it though...13 weeks of uni isn't so bad...and since I'm only there 3 days a week this sem I'll only be at uni 39 days. Which is just a bit more than a month all together. As long as I just think that, it's a-okay! right?

Enough rambling!
xx

I received the jacket from eBay. It's nice, and warm, and fits. I was wearing about a kazillion layers though. I seriously have such a weak resistance to the cold. I'm like, permanently hugging a hot water bottle, massively rugged up, and killing the electricity bill with my heater-ing ways. Global warming doesn't sound too bad to me. Hahahh. Just kidding. >.>

Only 13 more days to suffer through until exams are over. I seriously can't wait til the holidays. I'm gunna go NUTS. My camera will be prety happy too. It's been deprived of a lot of action during the semester. I'm sure you guys will appreciate it too since you'll get to look at pretty pics instead of reading about my boring life. =D

Wanna hear my plans for the holidays? I love planning, especially during exam time. Gives you something to look forward to [and to torture yourself with while you're actually suffering through exams..]

- See friends + roger
- Steal roger's acoustic. ahahha.
- Clean out my closet and sell, sell, SELL!!!
- ...Get my driving up to scratch. I still can't go into parking places in shopping centres. LOL.
- Experience the city's nightlife and go a bit crazy. Just to live a little!
- Start putting some of my more creative ideas into action. [This is something I'm VERY keen on doing, so once I do it, I'll show you what it is. Mysterious, huh?]

Okay, enough procrastinating. Time to study! [a.k.a. go on eBay a bit..]
Love much,
xx

Okay, that's just creepy.

I won the item I was bidding on. I got it for 16 bucks. Which isn't too shabby really. =] Since Lauren said she wanted to seeee, this is what I bought!

Um. WTF. I was totally off with what I was writing!!! ARGH! What the hell! Stupid lecture notes! You let me down! ;srebg;ebgru;hbvrsjf!!! 

Anyway. Looks like I need to start over. 

To the holiest of guackamoles,

Please, for the love of party dip, let me finish this stupid thing on time!! 

If I haven't papercutted my wrists by friday evening, I'll talk to you all then. lol

Later I-should've-written-this-earlier-nator,
xx

It's funny in a sad kind of way. The presentation topic was attribution theory of motivation, which is about what people attribute their sucess or failures to. 

I attribute this failure to lack of ability. Which in reality, is kind of the worst thing you can blame failure on. It's sad to know that you don't do well at something because you simply just suck at it, and that's me with presentations. 

Sometimes I do okay. I think today was a step backwards. Group presentations really frighten me. being directly compared to other people is not something I enjoy. My other presentations this semester have been individual, and I've done better in those. But...today was just really bad. I'm just really unhappy and disappointed and really thinking about how much I suck. Once again, another reason to ponder why on earth I'm becoming a teacher. Won't know my results til next week, but when you can't go up there without a sheet of paper, and when you talk fast and stumble over your shit, you can't expect something good. so I'm screwed. Even though it was a group presentation it's individually marked though. So...I guess a good thing is that I'm not dragging anyone down, but it's just really embarrassing how bad I am. 

I think it really devestates me when I do badly at stuff. Particularly if it's academic. I suppose that explains why I hate maths so much. But yeah. It's just really upsetting. 

I'm not looking for sympathy or advice or anything like that. I just needed to vent. 

I think at the moment I'm just really, really sad. 

Love much. 

xx

EDUF2006 - Tues 16th June
ECOP2011 - Fri 19th June

GEOS2111 -Thurs 25th June

It's nice and spaced out riiighhht? Which is a good thing in reality, but in my head all I'm thinking is...'there's too much space! As if I'm going to study!!!'. loll. I'm actually really used to having my exams clumped together. It's been that way since the HSC, so this is quite a strange occurrence. We'll see how it goes. =] Let's hope whatever motivation I have holds out!

Later numerator, 

xx

I hate education and am going to suck at being a teacher. =[ 

Full stop.

*cries hysterically*

T_T

On a side note, in the mid semester breaks I need to catch up with: 

- Von schnitzel

- Squidgy

- Laureeeeeen!

- Gurpreet

- Rogface x 100

I don't think 10 days of mid sem break is enough...especially when I have to drive for a couple hours everyday, and since I have assessments due in the week back after the break. so...fuckzors. Unfortunately I have to be restrained with how much I go out...but I'll try to catch up with you at least once. And I can't stay out all day since I need to drive. So, be understanding! Also, I have to catch up with Roger A LOT in this break because he's going on holidays again in the mid year break, so..he's honestly on the top of my priority list at the moment. 

Just wanted to let you all know. I won't be up for catching up with people that I don't need to see. It's mean, but when you're short on time, that's the way it's gotta be. The end. 

Later folks.

xx

"uni shower" 

geddit?! 

you nee showah!! [in fobby accent]. 

Okay. I'm going delirious. Let's face it, university is the biggest blob of inconvenience that life has had to offer so far. But maybe I just feel that way because I'm so lazy and unmotivated at the moment. When I think about the note writing I actually did in the HSC, it's seriously trippy! like right now I can't even be bothered reading a page of my readings. A PAGE FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! And it takes such valuable time away from other important things...like....sitting around and doing nothing. Where am I supposed to find the time for that now?! loll

Next week Wednesday - political economy presentation

Week after:

monday - edu presentation

tuesday - edu presentation paper

wednesday - edu essay

WTF ULEH?! I'm gunna get my cousins on you, bro. South west side fo' shizzle!

After that it's the mid semester break though, so I can finally stick my head out into normal civilisation again and actually catch up with people! YAY! 

Okay, enough procrastinating.

Later terminator! 

xx